navigating adulthood

Hi!!!

So – dinner tonight was a bit unconventional – I indulged myself in jelly beans. Again. Not exactly a gourmet meal, but they did the trick !

I’m feeling a bit off due to some personal matters. I hope to share more about it in the future when the time feels right and when I finally have the right words for it.

Lately, with everything I’ve been going through, anxiety in full throttle… I’ve been having a lot of quiet moments. I’ve come a long way!

Some of the things I have reflected on… with jelly beans in hand…

Friendships that have come and gone, as well as those that have stood the test of time. Some lovers have faded into the past, yet one has managed to transition into a cherished friend.

At the heart of my memories are the meals crafted by my mom, each dish a comforting reminder of home. And then there are the flavours I’ve encountered during my travels, each taste a snapshot of the places I’ve explored and the emotions they stirred within me. The meals I’ve cherished, shared with family, dear friends, past loves, those who graced my life for fleeting moments, and unfamiliar faces gathered around communal tables in bustling food courts.

Some parts of myself that have evolved have often come at the cost of shedding old skin. Each transformation, while empowering, carries with it a bittersweet farewell to aspects of my past self.

Navigating anxiety and struggling with the weight of depression have been part of my journey, challenging me to find strength and resilience in moments of darkness and hell.

Navigating heartbreaks and deciphering the intentions of potential partners—whether genuine or questionable, this is something I have been thinking about a lot.

Navigating the complexities of my relationship with my parents has been a constant evolution, shaped by moments of understanding and growth and perpetual forgiveness.

Navigating grief isn’t a straightforward journey—it arrives unexpectedly, in ways we least anticipate. Still, I find myself hopeful and curious about how these experiences will shape me for the better.

The small acts of kindness I see every day, whether directed at others or towards me, never fail to leave a lasting impression on my thoughts.

The caring souls who go above and beyond to uplift my spirits, make me feel at ease, and remind me of the warmth of being loved and cared for.

Life, I’m grateful for the opportunity to embrace all these experiences. I wouldn’t have it any other way.

I am getting sleepy, I have a flight to catch tomorrow afternoon and I will need all the rest I can get tonight.

All my love… winds its way to you… good night:)